Dear Diary.
7th Sept.
All of a sudden, I feel the need to record my
feelings...don’t know why? Of course, I will carry the memories with me as I
have all these years. This is for just in case.
I fell in love with him on the first of the college. We were
in the same class, had same group of friends. The stolen glances, the heavy
silences, the tension and the awkwardness when I was with him, alone, meant
something.
Tired of waiting, I did muster up enough courage to convey
my feelings to him. He laughed at me and said – “Grow up! Assumption is the
mother of all f*** ups! There are many fish in the pond!” Eventually, I let
go and moved on or so I thought.
To prove his point, he got himself a girlfriend, more of an
arm candy. He was trying hard. I had gotten myself a boyfriend too...and we
both knew we were miserable. Was it ego, fear of commitment, or religion? But,
love is a religion...
College done, we led our separate lives, until one day I
got an invitation for me for a party. Both surprised and curious, I went. He
had got himself a job abroad and was going away for good. I was devastated to learn
this, and left the party. He called me many times. I did not answer his calls.
He messaged me giving his flight number and the departure time and date...and
had said – Please come.
Could I resist?
I went. As soon as he saw me, he just came and hugged me.
Years of pain, hurt, unresolved emotions started to rain from my eyes. “Oh!
Baby, I am sorry...I have been such a p****”, he said.
From then on everything happened in a blur. He produced a
ring from nowhere, went down on his knees and said –“Enrich my life, please be
my wife.” Amidst tears, I was smiling and nodding my affirmation, too shocked
and spell bound.
Years of nothing and now...this! We embraced each other for
what seemed to be an eternity. I was grinning and waving to him as he went
through the gate to board his flight.
I collapsed on a nearby chair and smacked my forehead with
the palm of my hand, cursing myself. How could I be so dumb to let the
opportunity pass? "I should have kissed
you...my love."
Now, I will be his wife in less than week’s time! Can you believe
it? It is slowly sinking in. I could not be happier.
Have to go shopping...ciao!
12th Sept –
He was reading her diary for the upteempth time. This was to be their wedding day. They were
meant to be...but, the fate had other plans.
She had died in an accident the very day she made her diary
entry.