A void, a chasm, a gorge…it is scary. Don’t want to look down. It is black and bleak. No end in sight. Hanging by a thread, is what it is called…a cliff-hanger!
In the solitary confines on my mind, am a prisoner of my thoughts. Neither the vodka knocks me down or the caffeine keeps me awake…hanging by a thread – nowhere!
Pain is a gift – bitter n sweet. Yet, a feeling though, a proof of being alive. This time of the year, joy everywhere, happiness everywhere, music everywhere, Christmas is the time of fun with family and friends…why not me?
P.S: This is a work of fiction. I have come across many blogs where people have written that Christmas is a very tiring and tough time for them emotionally. Keeping the different themes and prompts, have come up with this.
Pain is a gift – bitter n sweet. Yet, a feeling though, a proof of being alive....You are right...
ReplyDeleteWell written...
I liked it ..again meaningful n deep.
ReplyDeleteYes I m a prisioner f my thoughts yeaa...
Love
Mani
Festivals and special occasions are always difficult when you are alone ...This is the story for many people around the world, Savira and you expressed it so well.
ReplyDeleteI liked that, particulary the last part which reminds us that it's all worth it!
ReplyDeleteJamie
Very well said. A nice write!
ReplyDeletehttp://charleslmashburn.wordpress.com/2011/12/20/like-a-fairy-tale/
Yes, the holidays can be a rough and lonely time for so many. Glad to see this perspective in the balance.
ReplyDeleteAnd, I really felt I was on that cliff in your beautiful description!
Blessings!
pain can be a gift and a curse...it is often pain that causes us to change things...
ReplyDeleteI pray those who are bound in guilt and emotional turmoil are released this holiday to celebrate it in peace and joy. Your post was a good reminder of what many face this holiday. May we be sensitive to those in our lives who are such people.
ReplyDeleteHappy Holidays :)
This is realism for so many. The pain of the holidays without family is something that really takes people down the road you describe. It makes me want to help but I don't know how.
ReplyDeletesome very deep thoughts striking deep down.. !!
ReplyDeletethis "void" u mentioned plays such a big role in our lives..
Lovely read :)
Merry Christmas
n Happy New year
These are very true words, I can identify with them so much. great writing.
ReplyDeleteWe can so be a prisoner to our thoughts...great writing Janu!!
ReplyDeleteYes, I agree this can be tiring time, yet joyous once reunited with family and presents.
ReplyDeleteNicely expressed. There ARE some people for whom Christmas is NOT fun. Thanks for sharing with Poetry Jam.
ReplyDeleteI beg your forgiveness for my cutting and pasting my comment, but there was no way on Earth I would be able to make it around the whole globe to wish everybody a Merry Christmas otherwise.
ReplyDeleteThe magical elves that constitute my staff have demonstrated their lack of respect in either not showing up for work at all, or those that have all seem a little worse for wear (if you catch my drift). All they seem to do is sit around smoking cigarettes that, frankly, smell funny. In addition, they play cards and tell dirty jokes rather than do their jobs! Consequently, the reindeer are all filthy and out of shape.
Despite my best efforts, the couple of chooks, arthritic wallaby and three peculiar wombats that I’ve drafted in just don’t cut it as replacements.
Anyway, all the way down here at the bottom of the world (A.K.A. Tasmania), and from myself, Jen, Henry and Ezra, please have a Merry Christmas/Winter Solstice/Hanukkah/Festivus/Ashura and a happy New Year!
I hope that all of your holiday photos turn out to be triumphs, your stocking is stuffed full of lots of tasty treats and not coal and that all your pumpkin pies/ prawn cocktails/ currywurst are all as tasty as can be!
this is very insightful... thank you for reminding me that so many find Christmas a difficult time. bless you.
ReplyDeletegreat insights,
ReplyDeletepain is cure or curse,
everything functions in multiple purposes.
cheers.
Thanks all....:-)
ReplyDeleteOur sweetest songs are those that tell us of saddest thoughts...
ReplyDeleteYou so perfectly capture all that the holidays has come to mean. No longer the joy of the season, instead stress and dark thoughts and all that you say in your story.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the gift of your wonderful words.
Happy TT and happy holidays!
While we were in the store a lady was trying to find the smallest ham to buy, she said it was for herself on Christmas. We took this to mean that she was going to be alone. I felt so bad and since we were not celebrating Christmas at our house I was not sure what to do. We just helped her find the smallest ham and wished her a Merry Christmas. I would have liked to have invited her to our house and we being total strangers she probably would have declined but just maybe it might have brought some joy to her heart.
ReplyDeleteAnd I too am so glad when it is all over but for many different reasons, and you have written very well how one might possibly feel. Lots of loneliness, sadness and pain along with the joy and happiness.
Thanks for writing such a great thing to share with us all over at Theme Thursday, a very nice gift indeed.
Merry Christmas.
God bless.